avpdkaneki:

we all know the “clearly they hate me” thing with bpd but can we talk about “clearly they’re dead” thing because it’s such a horrible feeling when you’re sat there, heart racing, already starting to grieve because you fully believe that they might have died and then they respond and you have to pretend like you weren’t just mentally attending their funeral

mental-ch-illness:

lets talk about splitting over and over again until you can physically feel that crack in your very being
lets talk about getting so attached that even the slightest thought of them not being there is enough to send you into fits of hysteria
lets talk about going against all your morals just to get approval
lets talk about scrutinizing a conversation for days trying to pinpoint just where it all fell to peices
lets talk about the dread you feel when you think that you will end up alone
lets talk about the euphoria of being texted first
lets talk about the days when it is a struggle to convince yourself that you fucking exist
lets talk about loneliness you can feel in your bones
lets talk about sobbing until your throat becomes raw and your eyes sting
lets talk about going to outrageous lengths to attract even a moment of attention
lets talk about desperately wanting to feel something besides anger, jealousy, fear, sadness, anything
lets talk about the feeling that nothing will ever work
lets talk about recognizing that awful pattern of behavior every time and realize you cannot stop it
lets talk about being unsure if you can continue living like this
lets talk about the feeling in your chest as you wait desperately for a response you dont know will ever come
lets talk about the severe, ugly symptoms of bpd.

drinkt0forget:

Bpd intensifies your emotions at times, and not just happy and sad. It intensifies every emotion you could possibly feel: Anger, Boredom, love, etc